2010..byebye

and so another passes and another year starts.
i really wish time would rewind back to middle school
days. i truly feel like i was happier back then than in high
school. no worries just enjoying the early teen life. sigh...
i felt that this year was another failure. i just cant seem to find
that old self. the old me where i can just be happy out of nowhere.
i keep feeling like everyday is just another let down and a countdown
until im out of school. im really scared of how the future is gonna turn out. how everything and everyone will be. who will i turn out to be... life is scary when i take the time to think about it. i really admire those who can enjoy every moment and not worry about a thing. then again maybe they just can do both unlike me.

so 2010... hmm let me try to remember .... most fun: dorney park most proud: permit most fail: goals set. and etc.
i am officially over her because no longer would my heart skip a beat when i see her. i dont know if it was a good idea to keep my distance with people. i kinda regret not...taking that chance when i could of but then again i think shes happier the way it is...
i fail at socializing. i am complicated thats why nothing goes the way
it should go.

i really am sorry to _____ for not being able to hang with her. but sometimes i perfer to just talk to her on aim or phone becuz she just
dont talk much in person. i know this sounds strange but thats just how i feel .

if there is one female that i owe alot to its _____ she is really something. the only person that can make me feel mushy inside.
when noone in the world cares she does. im glad to have her in my life. if there is one thing i wished i have done more was hang out with her. n talked to her more n etc...
and maybe tell her the truth that i been holding in and keeping away. but you know what its too late like always.

as 2010 lasts for another 22 hours...i hope to leave all the sadness behind. new year new start? no its new year new idea.