Second Week in

I'm learning a lot about myself being with her. I'm learning that I'm really not as perfect as I thought I would be. I'm learning that I make the same mistakes any other guy can make. I'm learning that I have many sides of me. I admit I make mistakes, I say stupid things and do weird things. That is okay because I acknowledge that and can work on it. I'm an adult now and I needa to realize there are something that I cant joke around. Somethings I shouldnt ever say. I really appreciate her pointing these things out to me. I'm really slow when it comes to myself, yet quick to observe when it comes to others. But, I'm glad she is here for me, teaching me how to be a boyfriend. Helping me grow too, mentally. The fact she is willing to stay with me and help me learn my imperfections really means a lot, that she likes me enough to not mind my mistakes. I never thought I could find someone like her, and I never want to do anything to lose her. That is a promise to myself.

Yesterday, she almost left me. I really thought she was gone when she left. And there I was...left alone with my nephew. I thought to myself, I really fucked myself over this time. She gave me many chances and I managed to always upset her. I really hoped that maybe she would turn back around...but she didn't. She kept walking. I ...almost had a emotional breakdown but I couldn't. Not in public. A break..into a potential breakup? Was my luck really that bad? Was it...

Decided to just go home and hide in bed, but once I got near the bus station...she called. She was across the street the whole time. It was...a really emotional moment. I saw her and I just couldn't hold the tears back. Memories flashed in my head when she walked away. Hugging her never felt better. You really don't know the feeling of losing someone then finding out they never left. It was that feeling.

I never want to go through that again. No more. I won't leave ever, and I hope you won't...either